Not resolutions

Somehow even calling anything a resolution seems like setting it up to fail.
Instead, I’ll just say: I’ve been thinking about trying to blog more.  So many thoughts are always rattling in my head, wanting to be birthed… 

But I hate to even use “blog” as a verb because it would be on my “Top ten words I never want to hear again” list for 2008, if I made one.  

I digress.

I decided to wait until after the holidays to seriously attack the weight loss issue.  I found that I was depriving myself, feeling frustrated about missing the holiday goodies, and still not seeing any change in weight.  What a frustration.  So I decided to eat whatever I want until the holidays are over.   I defined that as, Monday January 5.  This coming weekend is still part of my “holiday.”  Then I will start the South Beach Diet.  My doctor (neurologist) actually recommended it.

I’ve bought and read the book and recipes.  I’ve downloaded a shopping list.  I’m going to review the recipes with Greg over the weekend and see how we can dovetail the rules with things he wants to eat.

So – THEN the next resolution is to work on this diet for two months, then at the end of February, to decided that THAT is my weight and shape, whatever it happens to be, I will accept, and I will purge the closet of anything that doesn’t fit THAT weight.   I HOPE that weight will be around 125.  But whatever it is, I will live with.  Greg bought me a new scale for Christmas.  How sweet.  (Really. I mean that - to me it was a sign that he actually hears what I’m concerned about in my life).   I weighed in at 140 today.   So 15 pounds over eight weeks should be reasonable.

South Beach “promises” that most people loose 8-12 pounds in the first two weeks.  Water weight, I suppose.  Other sources say it’s not good or healthy to loose more than 1-2 lbs per week.  If I loose 2/wk for 8 weeks, I’ll be at my goal.